22/10/11
i ate:
b. a toast w strawberry jam, cranberry juice and 2 black coffees
s. fruit bowl
l. pret soup and salad
s. hot chocolate and filter coffee
d. cheese and tomato sandwich
i felt: started off positive, then felt sickening fat after trying on a pair of jeans. indecisive…unproductive.
i did: skyped to mum. made her feel like a failure as a mother… walked around with a friend.
i decided: not to buy ready-made food or eat out cause of their use of cream, butter, etc stuff i normally avoid eating. and to lower my daily budget.
Why do I hate myself THIS much?
It makes no fucking sense. I’m not a horrible person. I don’t deserve to be hated. Especially by ME!
I need distractions. Having nothing to do makes me focus on my appearence way too much and makes me SO self conscious that I can’t focus on here and NOW… hate it hate it hate me hate it all……….WHY…why?!
21/10/11
i ate:
b. 1 weetabix w water, 2 toasts w raspberry jam, 1 coffee w a dash of milk
s. peppermint tea
l. egg and tomato sandwich w grapes and water
d. caramel macchiato
i did: dropped my cv at a hotel. walked around the town a little.
i felt: stressed, unwilling to do anything i have to do, see or talk to anyone, overwhelmed…
i decided: to prioritise my tasks. that’ll ease stress and make me take action. otherwise i’m wasting time!
19/10/11
b. 2 black coffee and a toast w jam
rice krispies w semi skimmed milk
s. skinny caramel macchiato
l. falafel sandwich w water and camomile tea
s. tic tocs double espresso and a monster lo carb
d. pret 3 bean soup and a banana w water
20/10/11
b. 1 black coffee 2 toasts w jam and butter (and rice krispies again…)
l. 3 fish fingers w small chips, squash and a monster lo carb
s. double espresso
s. small mocha
d. jacket potato w baked beans and cheese
s. camomile tea
Help!
Milka choco-swing craving! Need healthy alternatives.
I’m allergic to nuts.
The only way to stop me from eating nuts is tricking my mind into believing I’m allergic to it.
How about that?! ;)
Me a month ago. Coming home reversed my weight loss process…now I have to get to how I looked a month ago and keep my figure then start getting slimmer!
(via artificial-fire)
